So I said yes.
To the boy.
And we were going out for all of 24 hours. But, I've backed out.
And, I think the only reason why I have is because I thought about telling other people- and got scared. Partly of what they'd think (would they tell me I'd chosen wrongly, or agree?) and partly of the fact that when other people know, it's real.
I'm not ready to allow other people in to my life.
Possibly, and it's a huge possibly, the last boy I let in, I might have even gone as far as to nearly love him. But, still, it was eight months before I trusted him with even small parts of what was once my life. I couldn't bring myself to let others know how I feel.
Even when I care about them.
So, now I'm torn. Am I a bad person? And I'm fairly sure the answer to that question is yes. But, am I wrong? And the answer to that is somewhat less certain.
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