Today WHC held their trials. Obviously with me leaving for university very soon, I wasn't actually taking part- but I went down to support those who were.

Turns out it was a wet day, but an unusual one. For once, club politics weren't the foremost factor in team selection, but actual ability. Which means two of my closest friends from the club, Hannah and Alice are moving up. Significantly.

They've both moved up 2 teams, and 6 divisions to play in the 1As. The club's second womens team. Clearly this is fantastic news for them, and Alice nearly ended up playing 1XI, but the coach wants to give her a little time to adjust to the new speed the game will be at.

And, don't get me wrong, I'm really pleased for them both, but- there's something else there, and I think it's jealousy. As I'm leaving I don't know what team I'd of ended up in, but something tells me, it wouldn't have been the 1As and I think I'm a little jealous that they've reached a point I don't think I could have.

So, at the same time, I'm glad I'm leaving the club this year, because now I don't have to sit by and watch my friends soar on to greater things at the club whilst I remain in the same team as always.

Meh. I think it's just me being selfish somehow, don't you?

[Sigh].